WOW. I fail.

Why yes, i do indeed FAIL. How long has it been since i last posted? Like 2 weeks, right? Yeah sorry about that, my loyal followers... *couch* *cough* So i suppose i should give you guys a lowdown of what you missed.
Okay, so i am an utter LOSER and didn't post on 11-11-11. Which would have been nice, because on 11-11-11 I GOT A BOYFRIEND.
Yes, i know what you're thinking. "Hannah, are you sure it was wise to rush into a relationship after what happened with Ty?"  And my response, honestly, is "YES." I am sure. For a number of reasons.
1- 11-11-11 is a once-in-a-lifetime sort of thing, and being asked out on 11-11-11 is a definite once in a lifetime chance. So naturally, i said yes.
2- I really think this kid and i have something. Which i know is what i probably said about Ty, but that's okay. I sound like such a whore, bear with me...
3- Blake is just so sweet, i don't see how anyone could say no to him.
He's really funny, romantic, good at giving compliments, sweet, caring, gentle, and on and on. He's just adorable. I like him a lot. Just sayin. SO yeah, i'll talk more about Blakester later.
Dos- Ty and I are on good terms now! Shocker, right? Yeah. I dunno if he still likes me or not... For Blake's sake and TY's i hope he doesn't. That would be awful.
Tres- Um... I don't know. I'm a terrible person for not posting more.
Now i shall go into random details, like I normallly do...
First of all, today has just been awesome. I got a new hairdryer last night (it's neon orange cheetah print.) and used it to dry my hair this morning before i went to "WAPGiving" as Steve called it. :) Ah, Steve... I'll dedicate a post to him sometime. Um... I met a guy named Caleb, who's really fun. I think if we got to know each other on a deeper level we could be really close... But that's probably wishful thinking. ATM, he thinks i'm crazy and need to be drug tested. But that's okay, that's how all good relationships start, right?
Right?
Haha. Anyway.. Um... oh Blake came over last night. Hehe. ^_^ He's so adorable.
We chilled on my couch, watched a movie, and Cupcake Wars, (HE picked CW, not me. surprising, right?) and he introduced me to Storage Wars, my new obsession show. Ha. We cuddled on the couch, which is something i don't think i've done since Zac... Which was months ago. Pathetic, aren't I... It was one of those sort of things you see in movies- Blake and I on the couch, with all the lights off, not paying attention to the movie, just talking. Oh, and we had a tickle war. I lost. :)

Landlords and Teenagers.

So i just have to rant for a little bit. After today, i need to.
However, I'm NOT going to rant about **. He doesn't deserve to be posted about right now... I hope his face hurts. -_- Cause my hand did.
ANYWAY... Ranting. So i have to say, living with my stepdad is like living with a combination of a landlord and a teenager. Don't believe me? Let me give you some examples...
Landlord: Don't pile your dishes in the sink, Drew doesn't like that.
               Don't leave your stuff on the stairs, Drew doesn't like that.
               Don't leave your backpack in the kitchen, Drew thinks it looks untidy.
               Don't leave your laptop plugged in in the living room, Drew doesn't... Well you get the idea. GAH. Every. Single. Day. I get told not to do something because Drew doesn't like it. Well, he's gonna have to suck it up, because when he decided he was going to marry my mom and force me to move to his giant old house, he made an unconscious decision to share his beloved bachelor pad with 3 girls, none of which are that tidy, and ONE of which who doesn't care if he doesn't like it or not, this is HER house too, so shut up and share, buddy. Goodness.
Okay, now the examples of Teenager.
Last Sunday, he didn't go to church because his back hurt. Just a word for him- GIRLS' backs hurt all the time once a month, and they don't skip school or church or work because of it. They take some Midol and suck it up. He can too.
Saturday, he didn't help clean AT ALL because his back still hurt and he had a headache. Instead, he laid on the couch, ate food, and watched TV all day long.
And Monday, he decided he was going to be all silent at the table and not touch his food until SOMEONE had to ask what was wrong just so he could say "Bad day. Don't want to talk about it."
I SWEAR. How he ever got my mom to like him is a mircale. Maybe it was roofies. I don't know.
But you know those rich people that look down the end of their noses at everyone and judge people all the time and leave their carts in the middle of the walmart parking lot and park waaaay far away in the most inconvenient spots for the rest of he world because they don't want their precious cars to get dooor-dinged?
YES. He's one of THOSE people.

Well. I've been doing a lot of thinking these past few days, and wondering what i should say to certain people i used to be really close to. I guess, in short, moving away shows you who your true friends are. or WERE.
So let's go through the list of my 'friends' and my 'not friends' back in Kansas.
Emma- I love the girl. We stay in touch occasionally, and i get updates and advice every now and then. I'd categorize her as a 'friend.'
Emily- She tries... But it's obvious she doesn't really care that i left. I'd say 'not friend.'
Jade- Jade is a 'friend.' We text a lot, facebook, and i message her mom all the time. Her mom is without a doubt the coolest adopted mom i have.
Clara- She acts like she misses me when i visit, but that's about it. She just does it cause it's common courtesy. She's a 'not friend.' Sadly.
Maluki- We were never really that close to begin with, so i doubt my move affected her. I'd say she's neutral.
Georgia- The move definitely affected  George. We text almost every day, and talk a lot. She's a 'friend.'
Madeleine- Yes. We facebook every day and text when we can. We were super close, and still are. 'friend.'
Kylee- She got to Topeka just as i left, so we didn't have a chance to become friends or not friends. Kylee's another neutral.
Oooh, now let's move on to boys.
John- He WAS my son, and we occasionally facebook.. In his defense, his house doesn't have internet and he doesn't have a phone.. So i'll let him remain neutral.
Joe- Um, no. ever since i decided i didn't want to date him in 6th grade, he's HATED me. In the full meaning of the word. 'NOT friend.'
Seth (Nigus)- We weren't ever friends really, but never enemies either... So i'll leave him as a 'friend.' We still talk occasionally via facebook soo...
Ben- Yeah, we were friends i guess. He cried when i announced i was leaving, so... Yeah. 'friend.' :)
Grey- Definitely 'friend.' We text almost every day, and the distance hasn't affected us at all.
Kegan- Does he even count? He didn't talk to ANYONE in the school except his 5th grade sister... So... Nope.
Austin- I'd say friend. We text occasionally, and our relationship didn't change. Similar to Grey.
Seth (Wills)- We're definitely friends. We text every day, and the distance between us only brought us closer. Yep.
Zac- Well, we were friends. I don't know if we are or not anymore. He sorta shut me out of his life about a month ago, which doesn't surprise me. The kid cried for like 3 hours the day i left, and every night after i was gone for about a week. I don't blame him. I consider him my friend, but i don't know if i'm his.
And Katie.- I don't know what to put here. I love her. And i know right now she needs a 'friend' so.. yeah.

Not sure what the point of that post was except to get out some feelings and rant a little. I'm good at ranting.
Stay awesome.

To Katie...

So, it's Katie's birthday.
And i figured since it would take too long to text and facebook is just dumb, i'd write her a post.
So here goes nothing.

Katie-- i love you. I really do. I mean it.
I know it rarely seems like it, and i seem to have moved on and changed now that i live in Texass, but i'm still the same old dork i always have been. I wish we were still as close as we were before, but quite obviously we grew apart. Which is ironically exactly what we promised to never let happen. I don't know if you still remember this, but before the Vegas trip, before anything too drastically crazy happened, we sat up in a bathroom in a hotel in Branson Missourri and talked for somewhere close to 4 hours. I don't remember everything we talked about, but it was a lot. There were a lot of tears, a lot of laughs, and a lot of "shhh's" so we didn't wake the lady in the room. That was the night we got really close, i think. I don't know. A lot went down that night. Similar things happened in Vegas, and a lot of other places too. And everyone knew we were inseparable.
But i don't want to bore you and stuff. And i know this is really really, really cheesy.
Just know that i still love you and from now on i'll try to be better at 'being there for you' and just be a better friend. iLove Yoo B...abez .. !!
;) Always.
~Oi

Ugh.

Guys: Can't live with em, can't live without em.

So i know the whole Trio is posting about ** right now, but i feel the need to do it too... mainly because it involves ME. -_- *sigh* Yeah. It's sad how i realize how dependent i was on Ty (yeah i know, i didn't star it out.). I seem like this cool, crazy, 'one man wolf pack' kind of person.. And then you realize how shallow i can be. I dunno... Last night at youth group, i was feeling sad, so i went up at the altar call (You'd have to go to my youth group to get it...) and had one of the leaders (Mia) pray over me.
She said that no matter how lost and confused i may feel, I've brought a light to my youth group that affected everyone there, including the leaders. I'm glad i'm a light to someone, cause i sure ain't to myself.. Ha.
I should stop posting depressing stuff...
Oh! Today in Art, a girl (i love her... idk who she is though. >.<) was attempting to explain to Alex (a Ginger) why she has 'tiger stripes' along her arms. I knew immediately what she was saying; i have 'tiger stripes' on my legs... Ginger just couldn't get it, poor guy. So finally, i looked at him, took a pair of scissors, and pretended to cut myself, saying "slice slice." he finally got it. And then he acted all repulsed and didn't talk to us for the rest of the period... poor ginger. :] gotta love him.
Anyway, i think that's all i have to say for now.
Love ya guys.
Long live the Trio.

There's a Taylor Swift song that describes how i feel right now.

This post is for Bethani's benefit.
That was my disclaimer.
I'd give background on what I'm about to say, but that would take too long and I'd rather not relive the emotions that were felt earlier, so, without further ado, here are the messages between Ty and I from earlier this afternoon.
(Oh yeah, this was after i recieved news from Brooke that Ty doesn't like me.)
Me: You're a whore.
Ty: Wow.
Me: What.
Ty: You just called me a whore.
Me: Obviously... Do you know an Alexis?
Ty: I know 3? Why?
Me: Someone told me that you told an Alexis that the reason you 'didn't want to go out' was because you "don't like me like that." Is it true?
Ty: No!? Is that why you called me a whore??
Me: Um, yes! can i trust you?
Ty: Yeah, but obviously you can't when you go name calling before even asking.
Me: Don't pull that card. i just wanted to get everything straight. you mad now?
Ty: Yes i am.
Me: i'm sorry... don't be mad...

and that concludes our conversation.
Enjoy, Bethani. :(